For me, anxiety means that I lie. A lot.

I lie a lot. I never mean to and I don’t like to. I never lie about the important things—in fact there I’m a terrible liar but little social lies? Yeah, those I do all the time. I fear judgement so I say what I think people want to hear. I fear other people feeling …

Therapy on TV: Bones

Originally, Booth, the macho-FBI agent and former sniper, goes to mandatory therapy after shooting a mechanical clown on top of an ice-cream truck. Booth has a phobia of clowns (which to be honest, I also share), but it’s really a response to the death of serial killer during a chase. Booth feels conflicted and guilty …

My Thoughts on Bones’ Take on OCD

I started watching Bones when I had to have a spinal tap before my second scoliosis surgery. I spent my Thanksgiving break laying completely flat on a couch and binge-watching Bones DVDs that my dad picked up for me from Blockbuster’s (which definitely dates my story). I focused on it instead of the raging pain …

Fear Can Make Us Small

Fear can make us small. It can make us paranoid, nervous, suspicious, unfriendly, close-minded and all these things that I don’t want to be. My anxiety and OCD means that I get scared a lot. Ordinary things that don’t scare other people scare me. Some days I’m more scared than others. Some days I have …

Mental Health and Moving in a Pandemic

When the reality of the coming shutdown became clear, we started thinking hard about when and how we would move 500 miles. We had been thinking about the move for a while, had even visited the areas we were thinking of moving to but hadn’t started seriously planning. We had originally planned to move in …