I lie a lot. I never mean to and I don’t like to. I never lie about the important things—in fact there I’m a terrible liar but little social lies? Yeah, those I do all the time. I fear judgement so I say what I think people want to hear. I fear other people feeling … Continue reading For me, anxiety means that I lie. A lot.
I started watching Bones when I had to have a spinal tap before my second scoliosis surgery. I spent my Thanksgiving break laying completely flat on a couch and binge-watching Bones DVDs that my dad picked up for me from Blockbuster’s (which definitely dates my story). I focused on it instead of the raging pain … Continue reading My Thoughts on Bones’ Take on OCD
Lately, I’ve been beyond exhausted. Fatigue, exhaustion, and tired: nothing seems to cover how worn out I actually feel. I’ve had almost all of my IV iron treatments and I still feel wrung out like an old washcloth. I know it is normal for some people not to feel better until all of the treatments … Continue reading When Everything Feels Exhausting
Anxiety doesn’t always have a trigger. Sometimes it’s clear to me why I feel anxious: I am waiting on test results or about to meet with a new client. Sometimes, I find that my anxiety is triggered by alcohol or caffeine. I can often pinpoint something that’s making me anxious. I can say to myself: … Continue reading Anxiety Doesn’t Always Have a Trigger
It’s been a long time since I’ve written. I’ve been going through a stressful time health wise (what else is new?), and I haven’t been able to focus. I’ve had fun new symptoms like horrible night sweats almost every night. It's not glamorous or fun. In fact, I've been feeling a bit ashamed by these … Continue reading Healthy Anxiety